you know when you're really stressed out but you don't really know it because you feel fine but really you're being an insane biotch? that's me this last week. i'm almost waiting for this all to end just so i can be a normal functioning adult again. i feel like i'm sabotaging my relationship and the relationships around me... it's just not healthy. and not me.


*sighs* so, we leave tomorrow. thank god.

Help me raise money for the MDA!

Bail me out!!

I love my dog. And my kids for thinking to send this picture to me this morning.

I have been so tired lately... and my appetite is waning. I don't think it's the excitement of the trip. I wonder if it's just stress. Because, even though I am very excited, I've also been looking forward to this for such a long while that I'm trying to make sure it's perfect and stress free... probably at the cost of too much stress in the week leading up to the trip itself. I am really tired. I could nod off during work if I let myself. I think today I might even go home at lunch for a short nap. Since it's only 5 minutes away it's really a feasible solution.

So, the trip. Just 12 more days and we'll be driving through the night on our way to the Happiest Place on Earth. I think if I weren't so bloody exhausted I'd be hopping in my seat right now.

Did I mention I went down another pant size a bit ago? We went shopping for jeans and I tried on my size and was SO excited that they were too big! So now I'm a new size. No, I won't tell you what it is. Bianca cursed me when I told her... so I had to say "well, maybe they just make their pants bigger now" hehehehehe. My ass = smaller than it was last month! Now, if only I could ditch the fat hanging onto the back of my arms. What the hell is that about anyway, people? Arm fat is a cruel joke.

I just ate a full size candy bar for the first time since I moved here. I feel sick. That'll show me, eh?

So, two more weeks. I'd be excited right now if I didn't feel slightly dizzy and off center.


This weekend was really productive. I finished packing with the exception of a few small items we'll need out until the end. I started to run a little... figured my body is used to all of the walking by now and it's keeping me from shedding any more weight. Well, that and the Moe's I ate for lunch on Friday. So, running sucks. I dislike it. I'm hoping that as I become more fit I'll like it more... but thinking back to being skinny, I don't think I liked it then, either. I ran when I was pissed off or really unhappy. And it was more a run into space... just because there wasn't any outlet for my rage. Just to feel the wind on my face while I was hot with fury. But running just for the sake of fitness? Not so much.

All of my Disney stuff arrived today.

Q- Can Kyria be more excited?
A- NO! No, Kyria can't!!


21 more days to Disneyland.

I hate Sprint/Nextel. Seriously. I don't use them... I use ATT. But I have to deal with them at work on a constant basis for ordering and such for the guys... and I can tell you that is is a new nightmare. Every. Single. Time. Really.