The weather has changed from brisk autumn to frigid winter in just a couple of days. I'm ready for summer and it's not even November yet.

Yesterday I lost my cousin. He was 28 years old. His son found him. No one knows what happened... he was so young. I just keep remembering him standing at the patio door when he was maybe 6 years old, watching his little sister play. He was 28 years old and every time I think of him he's 6, looking in at us through the open sliding glass door while his mom talks to my mom. I think of that little boy, think of the man he became that I barely knew, and I cry.

Stress has been something of a constant in my life lately. I'm always a little unsure of my employer just because I work with Mike. The owner tells me how happy he is but, when it comes down to it, I get a little on the nervous side. I love my job, I'm really good at my job... But it's a struggle every single day. There's never a day that goes by that I don't have to fight to be happy there. Plus, I've found out recently that one of the girls in the office is documenting issues she has with me. This would be totally fine except that I found the document (because she saved it on the server... duh.) and, I kid you not, it's LIES. Like, all of it. She's fabricating shit about me. On top of this I'm dealing with musical warfare. She goes around the office and turns up the volume everywhere. Sometimes I come into my office in the morning and she's messed with the volume in MY OFFICE. Who does that? Seriously?? She's going to force me to take back my XM. You all know how much I hate to be bitchy that way... yeah.

OHMYGOD I completely forgot! My sisters met my bio-dad, Pete, for dinner and guess what Pete told them? Apparently he isn't my bio-dad after all.... surprise!

It's bad that I'm only blogging once a month or so, isn't it? Yeah, I know. I have found that I'm busy a lot. Sadly, when I'm not busy, I'm tired. Really freaking tired. I'm also on the computer all day long at work so getting on the computer more after I get home isn't as appealing as it might be were I not in front of the computer all day long at work. I made that sentence obnoxious on purpose.

At the end of September I almost died by moose. I kid you not. Nothing else even remotely as exciting as gone down in my life.

Matt lost his job and we're sad about it. He's not sad. He's kind of loving the whole "I have free time" thing. He's studying for school and getting stuff done that needs to get done. He's filling me with a sense of "get your lazy butt up and go get a job" though. It's not fair to him and I'm trying to relax about it... but still. Go get a job.

Zach just turned 17. Ian's doing great in school. Life is generally good.

That is all. See you next month.